Happy New Years Eve

Another year GONE....can you believe that in less then 24 hours it's 2009....I can't. Where did the year go? I am heading to my moms this evening......Mike, Ramon, Blake, Rosanne and George. I can't wait to see my mom and my sister Elise. I am almost done with the 2 albums I am doing of Ramon and Blake for my mom, just need to embellish...I was hoping to get one done for Elise...but it doesn't look good. Maybe I will just give her the pictures that I printed out for her album...if she wants me to put them in an album I will bring them back home..finish it and then mail it to her. Need to make a couple appetizers for this eveing...artichoke dip and chipped beef dip....yummy. Haven't had either in a long time. Also have to get everyone packed and bathed...going to be one heck of a busy day.

I am wishing all of my wonderful friends and family a safe and Happy New Year. Hope you all have a wonderful evening and I will think of you all at midnight. {{hugs}}

It's Almost that Time Again

In one month it will be my birthday.....42 HOLY CANOLI.....most of my friends celebrated their 40th this year and most of them had surprise birthday parties...I wasn't able to make it to them and I miss that...but I remember many years ago a surprise birthday party that my firends gave me in my own apartment. It was my first surprise party and it was such a great one....we sure did know how to have fun back then. I know I have pictures from it somewhere....I need to dig them out and look at them...wish I could upload them here....that would be a hoot! lol

Merry Christmas to my family and friends

Well, it's almost over. Hope everyone had a great day. Our day was soo laid back, it was kind of nice. We didn't have to travel anywhere. We had Mikes boys over night and then Mike took them to their moms at noon and the rest of the day was just relaxing...didnt even make dinner...LOL...decided on saving it for tomorrow for when my sister gets here. We just muched on this and that. DD is already asleep so to bed I am heading real soon. Worked on my moms mini album a little bit today...printed up more pics and also worked on my December album....I have alot of journaling to do in it. ACK...You all know how much I just love to journal.....NOT!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Merry Christmas Eve

I can not believe that tomorrow is Christmas and that I won't be seeing my family. :( But I will be able to see some of them on New Years at my moms. :) Wasn't able to get Mike anything and he didn't get me anything...just cn't afford it. Last year we were supposed to be smart and take a bit of money out of each check so that come christmas we would have no worries.....but this was such a bad year financially taht it just never happened. We have again said that we will do it for next year...I am going to make sure of that. We weren't even able to get my other ss anything...he's 18 so it wouldnt' have been too much anyways....I was hoping we would be able to run out tonight with Mikes bonus check and get him something...but in with Mikes check wasn't a bonus check but a letter saying with the way the economy is...blah blah blah.... I am really sick of this companies BS.....I am hoping that come the new year Mike will start working for his brother and making alot more money...this is my christmas wish.

More Snow

I just can't get over all the snow....I am not complaining...I love the snow...it's so beautiful. But it has been snowing everyday since before December started...I am not kidding. I do worry about Mike driving so far in this weather. They have cut back on the road workers and how often they will plow the roads and put ice down. Mike missed work yesterday because they announced on the news that teh roads would NOT be plowed or salted until the afternoon, because it would be pointless. So stay off the roads. What a bunch of BS. So that is my complaint today.

Working on the mini album of Ramon that I am making for my mom....started it early this year but missed placed it...need to make one of Blake too...I also need to make one for Elise but I will combine hers. I am running out of time but I do have until New Years. Made a couple CD orniments for them too.

I can't believe christmas is in 2 days. I did get some wrapping done..not much. Of course as soon as I started Blake woke up...lol Might try to get more done tonight...if she goes to sleep early again.

Life is soo crazy

at this time of year...where did it go? I cannot believe christmas in in a few days. I did get all my shopping done...just need to get it wrapped. DH is home today because of the weather, so hopefully I will get it done today. Still haven't gotten my camera program figured out. Not that I have done much scrapping to show but I did get one done that I absolutely love. Maybe dh can work on that problem while I am wrapping. :)

A good friend of mine, Eryn...has made a gorgeous digi kit...another friend Janet has called it blingalicious and it is just that, you can purchase it here. http://www.erynsscraps.blogspot.com/

Crazy Week

Last Friday someone from child services went to my step sons school to talk to him....didn't find this out until dh got back home from taking him to his mothers. His comment was...Oh someone came today and I smoothed things over for Donna. Smoothed things over for ME? Oh that just frosted my cookies...he's the one that got us into this mess to begin with. So I got a call earlier in the week from a very nice man from child services. We talked for about an hour and a half. I didn't bring up the suicide thing as I didn't want to stir up any other problems..especially after he told me that he feels there is no need for this to go any further. So I thought I would just let sleeping dogs lie.

Went and got our tree today. A really nice one...a white pine. Ramon wasn't thrilled about getting a real one after the last one we had....it was a meany. It was a blue spruce...boy are those painful. But he likes the one we got. It has soft long needles. We also went out to dinner. Had these huge burritos. Delicious. Was nice not to cook even though I made SuzieQ's Corn Chowder. But I started it late and it wasn't going to be ready for a couple more hours and Mike was starving. Fine with me...dinner is ready for tomorrow. :)

Blakes very sick. Every night she procrastinates when it's bed time and usually lasts a good hour. Also usually ending with her tummy is talking...she's soo hungry...she's starving.....oh I forgot to have my snack. Anything. So tonight when she was telling me that her tummy hurt I just thought it was her coming up with a new way to say she was hungry. I should have thought something was up when she fell asleep pretty fast after that. I heard her cough a couple times and then got up and went to the bathroom. I asked if she was okay and she said yes in a sad little voice and went I went into the bathroom she started crying that she threw up all over herself and her bed. Got her cleaned up and put her in my bed and started laundry..sat down and she threw up all over my bed. More laundry. I am sooo tired right now but I want to get this last load in the washer before I head to bed. She's been quiet for the last hour, so hopefully she will sleep the rest of the night. My poor little baby. I hope she gets well quick...we are supposed to go see Santa saturday. :(

PART 2

Mike and Drew went to their appointment with the P/O. By 10:00 I was hyterical. Jim had to turn in his report from the night before and the knife incident was on it. The P/O has to report that to child services. I am so scared....I don't know what will happen....because of Drews selfish acts, out bursts and lies, now I am going to be looked upon as a bad mother..that they may think my children are in harms way being around me. I have never hurt my children. I am so scared. This is something that I will NEVER forgive my step son for. No matter what the outcome. My one question though is...How come Drews suicide threats haven't been reported...and why is that not as serious as a false knife threat? I have so much anger in me right now...that I wish I could just close my eyes and when I open them this will have been nothing but a nightmare! :(

Please....say a prayer for me. I am so scared and feel so all alone right now.:(

It started out as a good week and has just gotten worse as it went on. Tuesday I got in a fight with my step son Drew. He came home earlier then usual...he got a ride home from his girlfriends mom. This is against his probation. I didn't nkow it at the time. What started th fight was that he allowed his girlfriend into my home...harsh you think...well since the end of August she has owed me an apolige. Neither her or Drew wants her to give it to me. They both know that she isn't allowed her until I get one. She has had over 4 months to do this. She chooses not to. So I was in the kitchen cutting up veggies when she came into my house, "to see Blake" ..doesn't matter what she was there for..she isn't allowed. Don't use my daughter as an excuse to try and get away with something. So about 10 minutes after she left I said something to Drew, I said Drew I am not trying to be a biatch but this..your girlfriend coming in to see Blake or whatever isn't allowed...she is not allowed her for any reason. You both know it. He was in the diningroom by the livingroom and I was in teh kitchen by the stove...a good 20 feet if not more away. Well, he got all defensive right off the bat. Started saying things, I responded. Names were called and I told him to go to his room. He refused. More words were spoken and I told him to get out of my house....pointing to the door. He said I don't pay for anything so this isn't my house it's his dads. I said this is my house and you can just leave..again pointing to the door. He started heading towards the phone which is on a long counter in between the kitchen and diningrom... he looked down at my hand and said as he stepped towards me and puffed out his chest..Oh are you going to stab me know...OMG...I didnt' even realize I still had the knife in my hand. He grabbed the phone saying he was clling his mom and I said no you're not get out and I grabbed the plug and disconnected it. He threw the phone across the kithen and it shattered against the wall. I left the room and when I came back he was looking for the pieces, I took what he had from his hands and he then left the room. I was so scared and shaking so bad. He came back through and then left the house. I went searching for our other phone that Blake plays with to call his dad, couldn't find it, couldn't find my cell either. I fianlly found the other phone and couldn't get through to Mike, then the phone rang and it was Mike asking me what the heck was going on....I just busted out crying. I asked how he knew and he said he got a call from his ex...how did she know...Drew called her...how? He used your cell. WTH he stole my cell phone? Mike told me to call the police and Jim (his house arrest guardian person) I said I wasn't calling the police but would call Jim. Jim showed up and picked up Drew who was sitting outside and they left. Mike got home and we waited. They finally came back and we all sat down and talked. Drew had told Jim that I was jabbing the knife towards his chest. OMG...I couldn't believe what was coming out of his mouth. He also stated that he hated it at our house, that he wakes up every morning hoping to get hit by something on his way to school. He had aslo told Jim that I had direspected him when I said that his girlfriend wasn't allowed her, making Jim think I did this in front of her...Jim agreed that I was being disrespectful and I spoke up....I said...this is totally wrong... How am I vbeing disrespectful... He knows she isn't allowed to be here yet he did. I told him that I didn't even say anything right away, that I waited at least 5 minutes after she left. Jim looked at Drew and asked....so your girlfriend wasn't even here? Drew took along time before answering that one. Drew said he wanted to go back and live with his mom and that he wanted to go to the Grant schools..this is were his girlfriend goes....THIS EXPLAINS HIS OUTRAGE...The talking went on and Drew again spoke of thinking about killing himself. Jim told him that he will discuss this with Drews P/O and maybe see if they can get him into a foster home...or he may think he needs to go to juvie.....this was pretty much the end and Jim left. Mike took Drew to the store and they talked. Drew said taht he was lying about it all, that I wasn't pointing the knife at him in a harmful way at all and that he knew letting his girlfriend in was going to cause a problem. When he got home Mike made him call Jim and tell him what he had said to him in the car. Later I found a letter from him to me on my desk. So much crap comes out of his mouth that you can't believe anything he says..but I took this letter to heart and wrote him one in return. The next morning they had a scheduled appointment with the P/O.